Morningtide: A New Day a New Perspective

The change a new day brings and the challenges we face during it. Helping me and others help ourselves.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Baby Kyler and my Puppy Bailey

For those that want more pictures. Here is a few more that I have from baby Kyler's birth and 1 of my precious puppy Bailey.

This is Kyler Ryan Frost. Weighed 6lbs 11oz and was 20 1/2 inches long.

This is mommy and baby. Jennifer and Kyler. How sweet. :) She's such a happy mother. I'm glad she's my friend.

This is my baby, Bailey. He's too cute. He's the puppy I mentioned that I've been walking at the park. He's a Yorkie Poo (Yorkie and Poodle).


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Kyler Ryan Frost

Here's a picture of me with baby Kyler that was born this week. He's so precious. Jenn and Billy are going to be great parents. :) :)

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Week Review


So much has happened this week and I've not posted on anything.  Bummer. I'll just post the highlights.

Tuesday was the birth of my new favorite nephew Kyler Ryan Frost.  I sat at the hospital for several hours waiting on my best friend to have him.  He is so precious.  I'll have to post pictures when I get them loaded on my computer.  He's a cutie.  He was the best part of the week.  I know my best friend is super excited to have him here and is loving being a mother.  I know she's going to be great at it.  I also saw them for a little while on Thursday.  I got to hold him while he slept in my arms.  It made my day. 

I've also gone walking with my puppy three days in a row.  Everyone at the park seems to love him.  Children run up to me just to pet him.  So my walking time gets interrupted, but at least I'm starting to get back to the park to work on and get back in shape.  For those that don't know... I pretty much let myself go while mom was sick and haven't been able to get back into the groove since she passed.  So me getting out of the house and exercising and having fun with my dog has really helped a lot as far as helping my depression and so forth.

Wednesday night I had dinner with my friend Amy.  It was nice.  I don't get to see her much on the week she works. 

My husband has been working all week long.  His schedule has been swapped up due to new hires getting on the job training so he's been home late pretty much every night.  It's been alright though, but it just means I don't get to see him as much in the evening.

Last night we went to see our wonderful friends Brian and Sara.  Sara made my favorite for dinner, baked spaghetti.  It doesn't help with me losing weight, but I didn't eat much all day in anticipation for dinner.  :) We got to spend a wonderful night catching up and playing with their 2 children.  :) :) :) I always enjoy getting to play with children and babies.  It makes my day.  :) :)

Today was not interesting at all.  I barely slept last night and I don't know why.  So after I walked the dog and spent some time watching TV with my hubby, I fell asleep again.  I didn't wake up till 10:30pm.  So I pretty much slept my day away.  Go figure.

Oh and other news.  As well as trying to work on my at home business, I'll start cosmetology school in March.  I had a wonderful week, and on Monday Jenn and I went to get our hair cut by her aunt.  I've known her for years.  We got to talking and I told her how when I was in high school my dream was to be a cosmetologist.  However, I didn't pursue that dream at all b/c no one in my family liked that idea and they always tried to steer me from that and encourage me to pursue other interest.  I listened to them, and now I see where it's gotten me.  I know they didn't mean anything by it, and I was too young and depended on my families opinion too much to actually consider doing something I loved to do.  So I've been working and not loving my work for years now.  I loved it at first, but over time it's just not enjoyable.  After talking with Jenn's Aunt on Monday, I was super motivated to actually pursue my old dream again.  So I stopped by the school here in Fultondale and registered.  I can not being to describe how liberating that decision was.  :) :) :)

I feel so free now to pursue things I like.  I've spent the last month at home sometimes moping around till this last week and a half.  I can not begin to describe how much I've began to look forward to the future in this last week and a half.  It all started when I decided to join internet CEO mom's and see if I could start a business of my own at home.  Once I began listening to the training calls for the job, I began feeling so much better about myself.  It's been a long time since I've gotten some positive reinforcement for me especially when it comes to working.  These training calls are so positive and upbeat.  They make me feel like I can do anything I set my mind to.  It's nice to hear from such wonderful people and to have a support group of people who really want you to succeed.  It's something I haven't gotten in a long time, and it's really making a difference in my life.  I feel better.  I'm excited about waking up and starting the day.  I'm excited about the future, and I really feel as if I'm beginning to move forward instead of staying stuck in the past.  I feel like I've got so many more opportunities available. 

On the down side, I'm not making money yet.  So we are broke, but I know God is in control, and he will help us through this time in our lives.  It could be so much worse, but thankfully it isn't.  I'm so glad that Alex is being super supportive even though it means we may not have money for a while.  I'm glad he's not making me get out and find a job doing something I'd rather not be doing.  :) :) He's a super wonderful husband.  I know we are both stressed about money and that's natural when we are in a position where it's hard for us to make payments on things, but it's nice not having my husband stress me out and pressure me to get out of the house and work.  Under other circumstances he might not be this way.  So I'm REALLY happy he's being supportive of my needs right now.

So tomorrow we may go visit Gardendale First Baptist. We've been trying to find us a church we both like for a LONG time, but we are stuck in a rut and not getting anywhere with that.  I need to find out the times.  I've not been there since they got the new preacher.  Alex isn't fond of big churches, and I'm not fond of small churches, so who knows if this will be something we both like.  But I'm glad he's willing to go tomorrow.  :) Yay.  Please pray that we will find a church we both like and enjoy.  It's been so hard for us, and we've really not done much as far as going anywhere while mom was sick and these last 7 months after her death.  It's been hard, and much easier to sleep in, but we need to get back out there, and find a place to plug in and worship the Lord. 

Okay, so that pretty much sums my week up.  I hope everyone is having a great week and will wake up enjoying the options they have in their future. :) I know I am.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

This weekend with 2 of my best friends and hubby.

This weekend has been really good.  I've spent the last couple of days with some of my wonderful friends and husband. 

Friday was the day of my mom's would be birthday.  She would have been 55.  I mentioned something about it on Facebook.  Soon there after one of my amazing friends called me to hang out with her.  We went to lunch and then off to Baby's R Us since she's going to have a baby in 6 or 7 months.  She wanted to look at cribs and we got in the store and ended up going down every isle looking at stuff.  We found lots of things we liked.  For those that don't know, I've put baby making on hold indefinitely since I'm not over my mom's death.  So I'm living vicariously through my friends that are pregnant.  :) It's very fun for me and I like being along for the ride.  :)  We shopped and as we shopped we picked things out that each of us liked and talked about her upcoming new little one.  We still don't know what she's having so we just talk and wonder if it will look more like her or her husband and so on.  :) 

After we left Baby's R Us we went to Motherhood Maternity that's right down the street.  We had a blast in the store.  My friend bought a few shirts since she's starting to show and she will need them in the months to come.  While we were in there my friend came out of the dressing room with what looked like a basketball under her shirt.  Apparently they have cushions so you can see what you'll look like 3 months from the day you are shopping with them.  I thought it was too funny.  I stuffed it up my shirt to see what I'd look like pregnant.  And oh my word.  I don't think I like that site.  The idea of my having a tummy bigger than what it is now is just scary.  But it was fun to look and pretend I was preggers for a little while. 

After that I ended up going out with another one of my amazing friends to Walmart.  My friend Jennifer is due any day, and scheduled to have be induced just a few days from now.  So I went with her so that she isn't by herself while out and about. We got to catch up on some stuff.  It's been a while since I've seen her b/c she's been so tired these last few weeks of her pregnancy.  :)

Anyway, during the day on Friday, my wonderful husband called me and wanted to take me on a date.  How sweet is that.  We go on dates pretty often, but I've not really done much to get ready and look cute for him in a LONG time b/c of my depression.   So after I got home from Walmart with Jenn, I took the time to get ready and get on nice cloths and put on make-up and fix my hair and put on my contacts.  All of these things I've not done since a wedding in October.  He was thrilled to see me looking good for him.  I'll have to remember to try more often to look cute.  It's so easy to backslide.

Saturday was pretty good.  I slept most of the day and then hung out with my friend that I went to Baby's R Us with the day before.  We decided it would be a good idea to shave her dog.  I had shaved my dog with week before, but he didn't have a ton of fur on him like her dog did. Her dog had some long hair and it was really matted up.  It took us 2 hours to get him shaved.  We had so much fun though.  There were times she wanted to give up b/c it was taking so long, but I wasn't going to let us give up on our mission to free her dog of all the hair he'd grown.  After 2 hours he came out looking so cute.  Then it was time to sweep up the hair and oh my goodness, my floor was covered with it.  :) After she left, my husband and I settled in and watched some episodes of Criminal Minds which is one of my favorite shows. 

Today has also been great.  I got up about 12 and finally went and got my meds from CVS, something I've been meaning to do all week last week.  Tonight me and the same friend went to see Due Date at the dollar theater.  The movie was too funny.  I recommend it to anyone who hasn't seen it yet.  You'll laugh your butts off.  :) :)

Anyway, all in all it was a great weekend and I really needed it.  :)  Tomorrow I get to go with Jenn to get her hair cut b/4 the baby arrives.  Then Wednesday she'll be induced and I'll be at the hospital most of the day.  Yay.  I'm so excited.  I love getting to see both of these 2 friends experience the wonder and amazement of pregnancy and one is about to experience motherhood.  I think she'll love it. 

Friday, January 21, 2011

My 5 year Vision...

So this morning I spent some time in training learning about how important a vision is for your future if you want to be successful.  I personally have always wanted to be successful, but have never felt I've cut it b/c of some of the things that have been said and done to me over the years.  I personally don't like my success being left in someone elses hands.  I can never live up to the expectation of others, therefore I never feel like I'm a success.  I do not like that feeling especially since I considered myself a success in highschool b/c I always made good grades and had words of affirmation from my teachers.  I never really realized till I got out in the corporate world, how important it is to be affirmed through words or actions.  Not getting it doesn't help my self esteem at all.  Maybe that's part of the reason I feel like such a failure and have felt like that for a long time.  The corporate world is not very affirming nor do they care about your self esteem b/c it's all about the bottom line and that's it. 

Anyway, I have written a vision for myself that I can hopefully accomplish in the next 5 years. This way I have something to work for and look forward too. :) 

<b>My Vision</b>
~ To work from home with CEO mom's and to be at the Senior Director Level.
~Two kids.
~New Car for either me or my husband.
~Debt Free
~Have my savings account built back up again.
~Still living in the home we currently own.
~Alex having the ability to start a computer business he's always wanted.
~A more healthy retirement account so that I can actually retire one day and not just hope and pray that I'll eventually earn enough money to put into a retirement account.

I really enjoy the training I'm getting.  It makes me feel more self confident and in control of my job future.  

What I do at 12 am in the morning....

What am I doing now at 12 am in the morning.  Reading blogs.  It's been so long since I've read anyone other than my friend Rachel's blog.  One of my friends named Jennifer started blogging again recently so I've been trying to read her blog also.  :) It's been so long since I've just sat down and read blogs for fun.  My life has just been so full up until 6 months ago (2 days from now) when my mother passed away.  The last 6 months have been a huge adjustment b/c I've had all this extra time and I haven't known what to do with it. 

Tonight I decided since I was going to start blogging again, that I might as well go visit some blogs.  It's been interesting to find out what's going on in other people's lives.  Some of these people I know and others I don't know at all, but it seems like everyone has something good to blog about.  I saw this one blog that was all about someone finding very old pictures and doing the research to see if she could find out who these people are.  I thought it was absolutely fascinating that she spent all that time collecting pictures and researching the people in the pictures.  You should visit her site at Who Will Tell Their Story?

I also went to the blogs of note page on Blogger to see what was so great about these blogs of note.  :) It was interesting getting to know the stories of others. :)

And of course I always read Grasping for Objectivity  and B-Sides by my friend Rachel and Ramblings from an Optimist by my friend Jennifer. :)  I always have to keep up with them. :) They are great friends of mine.  I don't get to see either as much as I would like so keeping up with them through blogging is nice. :)

Other than that, I've been going back and forth with reading training information for my new stay at home job that I'm going to work on.  It's not really a job yet for me b/c I'm still in training, but hopefully I can make it successful.  I'd love to do something for now that helps me with income.  We need the income..  But then again, everyone can always use more income.  :)

Oh and Facebook is of course one of my faves.  I'm on it anytime of the day.  Up until a few days ago I was doing good with not getting on it, but since I've been on my computer more it's hard to stay away. Fortunately for me, I no longer play the games on Facebook. I got really overly addicted to Mafia Wars and Treasure Isle for a while.  It took me lots of strength to keep myself from playing those games.  I spent more time on the computer then, and not so much time with my hubby. 

Now that it's almost 12:30, I think I may go to bed.  Maybe.  Alex still isn't in here yet and I don't like going to bed without my husband.  Is anyone else like that?  My hubby doesn't think anything is wrong with it, but I can't stand it.  I can't really get to sleep till he's in here with me.  I guess I'm odd.  Or maybe he's the odd one.  Who knows. 

Here's a picture of us from our wedding.  That was almost 2 years ago.

I tried to find a more recent one, but I can't find where I put the picture I wanted to use. :) But then again I like looking back at my wedding day.  :)

Okay well Alex is finally here.  I'm going to bed. Good night.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

My first attempt to try to work from home...

So I found this website where I can work from home.  It would help me for income right now while I'm out of work till I get better with all the stuff I've been dealing with over the last few months.  I need something to do, but working outside the home just doesn't sound like something I want to do right now, plus I have a job I can go back to when I get well, and I'd like to keep that opportunity open and not shut the door on it. 

So last night I learned more about this company that can hopefully help me work from home.  It's sounds easy and I don't have to do in house presentations or keep inventory on hand.  Sounds more like my kind of thing.  I do not mind doing this type of stuff, but I can't stand the idea of going into others homes or asking them into mine to try to sell them things...and this isn't necessarily something I have to's mainly just advertising. :)

I'm going to try it and see how it goes.  I am working on the training portion right now, and will get the business up and going when I get through my training.  I'm highly excited about this opportunity. 

On another note.  I'm also attempting to write a fictional novel.  It will be a lot more work and will take a lot of time to get revenue from if I can even get it finished...and published.  But right now it's just something going through my head.  I'm working on characters first, and then I'll start writing.  But creating characters is very hard b/c you have to make them realistic so you have to know them all inside and out (not just the main character).  This is an undertaking.  It's always something I've thought of doing, but never really had the time or the motivation to do this, but I've been working on this project for the last few days and I'm making progress.  If anyone has any ideas of a plot, please feel free to let me know.  :)

I'm excited about what's going on right now.   It's not what I've been doing  for the last 6 years so I'm nervous about doing it.  I know right now though, that I am unable to work outside the home right now b/c things are just too emotional for me right now.  These 2 things are something I can do on my own time if I need to stop and cry my eyes out, I can.  When I'm ready to go back to work, I will.  :)

I'm praying that God will guide me in these new adventures.  B/c I would hate to end up no where with either of these options I have on my plate.